Dirty Little Secrets

sometimes its your best friend that gets you through the hardest times. as diya so bluntly put it: "saachi youre a fucking idiot". haha and i love her for it. sometimes thats exactly what you need to hear.

one of my most biggest annoyances is when no one listens to me. its like i have this voice but i want someone to hear it even though no one doesnt. i have good advice, but you wont take it. you pretend to think i dont care.. when i do, almost too much.

diya's right. i need to be a go getter. and as for anyone else: being the doorstep that everyone wipes their feet on is the stupidest lifestyle you can get yourself into. i need to be that someone that gets what they want, no matter what. dont step aside for anything or anyone if it gets in the way of what you want. dont be afraid to step on toes. dont stop to help anyone, because as soon as you do, someone is gonna run up and take your spot. does that even sound like me? sounds like a fucking bitch.. =/

gossip girl reference: i am the serena, while " " is the blair. serena gives up her spot at yale just so that blair can get in, just because its blairs dream. serena alllllways does that. why?..

The Chicken and the Egg

i had a really fun time last night (:, but with a few rude interuptions. yea, you guessed it: parents.

i dont like to pull out personal shit of mine. i feel like the things i have to deal with behind closed doors, should remain there. but yesterday, over something really dumb like "coming home at 9:30" or "back talking" or whatever, who knew it would turn into this?! yea a lot of people know that i dont get along with my parents, at all. its a proven fact. whatevs. i honestly don't know why. im a good kid right? haha. i try hard in school, but sometimes thats not enough for them. this crazy unending cycle of harsh rules, breaking the rules, getting grounded, breaking the rules again, getting more grounded, screaming yelling, mutual apologizing, rule breaking, etc. is getting fucking old. im more determined than ever to break this routine. no more crying, no more negativity, no more disfunctionality.

a lot of people ask me, "why are you so scared of your parents? they always ruin your mood when youre out". i have no response. truthfully, all im thinking about is getting into shit trouble. i dont even want to describe what that can entail. thats pretty much the answer. ive been through a lot; whether its from friends, family, or boys, my life is far far far from perfect. this facade, this picture is such a fallacy: perfect parents, perfect friends, perfect boyfriend, perfect LIFE. whaaaaat bullshit.but all in all, ive come to realize that i dont need to care about the parentalllllls and what they say to me. ima be someone some day. i gonna go to college. im gonna be someone someday. im gonna kick ass and make a change in this world. no one, especially negative people, is gonna hold me back from achieving my dreams.

im not a drama queen. i used to be, haha. but now, im possibly one of the strongest people you will ever meet.

First Impressions

first blog! who knew?
honestly, ima be the next perezhilton. just give me some celeb tips?
nah, ill stick with versaachi.com

i would provide a reason for creating a blog, but i can't think of any other than i think people have some weird perceptions of me, and maybe a blog can help me show you more than facebook. haha

well today took forever to end and now im finalllly home. no homework, no life. its okay, the office will take my mind off of things. i dont really have much going on at the moment, honestly. those of you that think that im a dramuhhh queen, step into my life and you'll fall asleep in 3 minutes.

i dont have much else to say so i might as well give you a taste of moi (:
love you.