(1.5) Years of Summer

it's hard for me to write..

i've just spent the last hour and a half watching the most beautiful movie, (500) Days of Summer. this is my favorite movie. i wish i could watch it in slow motion because its so amazing. not only is it fabulous because joseph gordon-levitt (playing tom) is lickable, but it's the fact that it just gets me thinking. it starts making me connect the dots of love in my life. it shows me the confidence that zooey deschanel (playing summer) emits in every minute of this movie.

she's not hot. she's not sexy. she is straight up beautiful. she is most definitely not perfect. she's weird. tom says that she has crooked teeth, knobby knees, and a birthmark shaped like a cockroach on her neck. but he loves every single one of those things. like i always say: imperfections are perfection. summer doesnt doubt herself. summer doesn't take a double glance every time she passes a mirror to check if anything is wrong with her face. summer doesn't try to change her smile so that her gums dont show because she thinks that looks ugly. summer doesn't second guess the way she dresses or the way she talks to people because what you see is what you get. where am i getting these examples from, you ask? i guess it's a little personal tehe.

but you know what sucks about summer? she breaks tom's heart. she rips it into a million pieces. and when she's done ripping it to shreds, she takes a shit on it by marrying someone else, when she specifically tells tom that she doesn't believe in love. summer didn't mean to be brutal. it just 'happened'. what happened exactly? can you tell me, summer? yes, i can relate to her, but i dont want to. sure, i can understand her, but im embarassed to. fundamentally i think she's right. tom says that he wants something with her, in a way that when they wake up in the morning, they wont change their minds about each other. she says thats impossible because that could never happen. she's right, right? marriages fall apart suddenly, relationships fall apart suddenly because you just arent feeling them anymore, it's not the same anymore. it hurts, take tom for example. all i want to do is scratch summer's eyes out and comfort tom. thats what everyone wants to do. especially when she gets married. i just want to kill her. i cried.

but then, tom meets 'autumn'. you'll meet your 'autumn', babe.